House is too quite

Emo-ing rite nw. Cant sleep even thou i tml on leave. Recently find that i cant stand my house to be quite or alone doing nth.... I will try to make sound to prevent it, like watching tv or videos, if not i will do any hw dream. Today aft work when i am on the MRT, i day dream till i nv notice a pregnant woman standing infront of me.

Everyday i hope tat the situation i am in is just a bad dream...a fucking bad dream....a fucking nightmare....and i always hope tat 1 day when i wake up everything will be back to normal!!!! CAN SOME 1 WAKE ME UP PLS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!